living out a beloved life
Posted by Lindsay on December 5, 2013
"And a terrible lie came into the world. It would never leave. It would live on in every human heart, whispering to every one of God's children: 'God doesn't love me.'"**
Sin came into the world. Lying and cheating, death and mayhem. We broke ourselves from God, we were banished from the Garden. We disappointed him.
That's the lesson I've always taken from The Fall. We messed it all up. It could have been so grand.
Did you know, though, that God wasn't interested in punishing us? Did you know his heart broke when he asked Adam and Eve to leave the Garden, when he realized that his children would have to live apart from him?
Did you know the Big Deal about the bite from that fruit was that we would forget that God loved us?
Oh, beloved, did you know?
Did you know it was never his intention?
Did you know that he has always loved you?
Did you know that the whispers in the darkness are lies quite literally straight from the pit of hell?
Think about it. Everything starts from there. I am not loved so...
I am a bad parent, spouse, friend...
I am too fat.
I am not smart enough.
I am a failure.
I am too much.
I am not enough.
I am forgotten.
I am replaceable.
I am worthless.
I read those words to my children tonight from the Jesus Storybook Bible and thought of how devastated I would be if someone made my children believe I didn't love them. It would crush me.
"You see, no matter what, in spite of everything, God would love his children-- with a Never Stopping, Never Giving Up, Unbreaking, Always and Forever Love."**
If it weren't so cliche, I'd have the word beloved tattooed on my body because that is how deeply God has impressed it upon my heart. My tagline comes not from having this figured out, but from being one who believes it to be so: I am loved by God. He calls me Beloved.
You, dear one, are beloved.
And the beautiful, magnificent, glorious truth is that
you always have been.
**quotations taken from The Jesus Storybook Bible, chapter "the terrible lie."**
Posted by Lindsay on December 4, 2013
Oh, how I wish I could slow December. This month is flying and I am equal parts excited and sad. I can't wait to be home with the kids for 2 weeks, to be baking and planning Christmas Eve menus. I can't wait to give our gifts and fill up on good food and family. Last Christmas was...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on November 22, 2013
In a world that seems to only be moving faster, the talk about margins and boundaries is ever more important. Bleary eyes checking Facebook and Twitter, work days seeping into off days, family members "spending time together" while all staring at separate screens. We have to...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on November 11, 2013
They were small 3-ring binders, the floppy plastic kind. I filled them with typed sheets (single-sided to my father's horror), hole-punched and complete with a title page. I wrote the title on the front in thick black marker and stacked them in my closet.
I had a file on...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on October 23, 2013
I didn't know it was a conversation to be had. No one ever told me that my gender would preclude me from certain roles within the church. I grew up watching women lead worship, teach Sunday School, read Scripture. I grew up with female elders and when I said that...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on October 15, 2013
I wonder sometimes if you'll ask about what it was like growing up, when your dad and I were young, finding ourselves and each other at Friday night youth group and Sunday morning services. Will you ask me about my friends? Will you ask about what music we sang? Will you ask me to tell...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on September 27, 2013
If you read any post on "things not to do on your blog" or "effective ways to build your platform," you will find that I am not good at any of those things. It's often suggested to build relationships with the "big fish" you should pitch some guest...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on September 24, 2013
I don't know why it's been so hard for me to admit.
My mom stayed home (or worked from home) my entire life, and I loved having her there. There's something about coming home from the roller coaster hell of junior high and high school to the stability of Mom always being there....(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on September 20, 2013
I have had kind of a crappy work-week, and I've been stressing about it for way too long. Giving people who don't deserve it real-estate in my mind, you know? So I baked and watched New Girl and read some books. I've been playing catch up on my goal of reading 50 books...(read more)
Posted by Lindsay on September 12, 2013
One of the wisest things I've learned working with teenagers is that you can't teach during a crisis. It's good parenting advice, too. When someone is in the middle of an emotional breakdown, be it a toddler or teenager tantrum, that is not your teaching moment....(read more)